Friday, June 19, 2009
163rd Movement
HelplessnessIndeed, all of us has felt that emotion at a certain point in our life.
And it sucks.
That was how I felt when I just heard everything from everyone, it was as if the world decided that I was to be Atlas, and bear the weight of the world on my shoulders.
But there is a difference of course, Atlas bore the world's weight because he had to, I am bearing the weight because I want to.
I used to question myself about my life, whether or not it would help if I did something small. I wanted to change the world, make sure it was a different place from what it was. But I couldn't, I was, and am, just a single man.
And just in a few days, God made sure He put me where I was supposed to be, a place of helplessness. A place where I could really feel the tension of pain and the intensity of hurt, for the past four days I have just heard from two people precious to me and my heart is torn.
Just how much does this have to go on?
God made man, and man reject God and His works, so why did God make man?
Was it a "they're going to hate me, but I'm going to love them anyway."
And then I remembered what a bunch of random people who came up to me a long time ago, they were evangelists, and they got me when I was folding flowers for my ex-girlfriend.
They said, "God's love is just like yours, your girlfriend left you, yet you are trying to get her back. It takes a lot of dignity to do that."
I had to agree.
But whatever His reason was, man is helpless against His will.
And we are all just instruments for a greater design, but some of us get hurt and torn along the way.
It's a fairly...sickening feeling.
But you just have to accept it, because after all, God is a being you wouldn't want to mess around with.
Helplessness, the only words that would come after it are "I'm sorry."
Labels: Inspiration?
Friday, April 10, 2009
149th Movement
Good Friday...
Why do they call it "Good" when you died so horribly for us?
Why is it called "Good" when love was crucified?
You gave your life for people you knew, but people who didn't love you. You gave your life for the past, present and future, and saved us from eternal damnation.
And yet here I sit, going through everyday, alone, ungrateful, as are many others. How does one repay such a sacrifice?
"For God so loved the world He gave His only Son, that whosoever knew believed in Him should not perish but would have everlasting life."
"For God did not send His son into the world to be its judge but to be its saviour."
"For it is by God's grace that you have been saved through faith. It is not the result of your own efforts, but God's gift, so that no one can boast about it."
Labels: Inspiration?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
144th Movement
The sense of touch is a very underestimated power of man.
Touch in itself can transmit a message, good and bad, and touch is the best way to convey love and hate, not words.
When we hug someone, we send the message of warmth and love to the recipient, we also send comfort and consolation depending on the situation. But yet it can also harm people, like when we hit someone we tell the person a certain negative emotion going through us.
And when we hug someone or something close, we get some sort of feeling as well, and sometimes it's so overwhelming we cry, or we don't want to let go.
When this power is used in the right way, the world will change, starting with each one of us.
Labels: Inspiration?, preachy
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Random tune
This is how and where all dreams endLabels: Inspiration?, Random Tune
Monday, January 12, 2009
Random tune
When you're at the top, when you're finally champion...When what you've ever worked hard for has been achieved...
What is there left to do?
What is there left to achieve?
What is there left to live for?
What is there left to do?
What is there left to achieve?
What is there left to live for?
Labels: Inspiration?, Random Tune
Friday, December 05, 2008
110th Movement
Sometimes we feel that people are so unreasonable that we lose sight of our goal.
I'm not targeting this at anything or anyone, it just came to me when I was sitting down playing DoTA with Edric, and it's not him I'm referring this to either.
Take for example, the game of DoTA. The objective of the game is to kill other heroes using what is given to you through the skills of your own hero and eventually winning the game by destroying the enemy headquarters. If Edric had been unreasonable and given me an uphill task, I would have gotten frustrated and probably ignore his future orders and go solo.
Going solo, of course, is nothing wrong, especially if you have the ability. But going solo with your eyes clouded with anger and revenge, nothing is going to work.
Putting our personal vendetta and issues over the greater good is definitely not going to work, most of us have to understand that getting to our goal is through hard work, diligence and of course, a clear mind.
Labels: Inspiration?
Monday, December 01, 2008
108th Movement
http://www.imeem.com/tasteofadventure/music/dleVFEnU/corrinne_may_five_loaves_and_two_fishes/
Five Loaves and Two Fish - Corrinne May
A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
But there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes
do with it as you will
I surrender
take my fears and inhibitions
all my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all"
I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work that I do
means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath I have
Oh Lord, You can work miracles
All that You need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
do with it as you will
I surrender
take my fears and inhibitions
all my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all
Take my five loaves and two fishes
do with it as you will
I surrender
take my fears and inhibitions
all my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small
Thank You...
Labels: Inspiration?
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
105th Movement
Christmas is here, and people are rushing around trying to save enough money and look out for the best presents to give their loved ones.Christmas has become a time of giving, a season of spending time with your loved ones and laughing off every bad things that happened in the year, or years before. Presents are exchanged at parties and food is in abundance at every house, people get invitations or are busy writing out cards to friends and family overseas.
But really, do we actually celebrate Christmas for its true meaning?
The secular world has commercialised it so much that the only religious meaning behind it is going for midnight mass and listening to the sermon about how Christ was born. Prayer is pushed into the dead of the night and we are even embarassed to talk about Christ outside in public and street evangelists go missing (not saying that they are all good though).
Do we really know what Christmas is about? Or has it died down to discounted presents and free gifts at the deparmental stores? Has old Santa become the center of attention and the Christmas tree just a shelter for our wrapped boxes? (Don't get me wrong, giving is a good thing and it reflects the selfless giving of Christ to others, a small reflection of it.)
NO! I say those Catholics reading this have to WAKE UP! STOP thinking about how the presents turn out and how much they are going to cost because honestly, IT DOESN'T MATTER! And it isn't because "the thought counts" but rather because the center of attention is not Santa but JESUS CHRIST!
Please, I cannot emphasis how important this is or how you can improve your relationship with Christ this coming season, it is all up to you to either worship your Lord or focus on the PSP you're getting for Christmas.
Labels: Inspiration?
Thursday, November 13, 2008
99th Movement
You ever feel sometimes that life just isn't playing fair?Like instead of throwing ONE dice it throws TWO die, and it's very very disturbing.
Life just seems to always get ahead of you, thinking one or two steps ahead and the main objective of life is just to screw you.
But coming to think of it, life isn't just emo and lonely. Sure, life is trying to screw you and your best friend is probably dating your girlfriend while your stock broker just ran off with your money accompanied by being expelled from your school BUT there is still more to life!
I once received an email (and heard of it too) that Angels are walking with us, but unfortunately some of them do not have wings, that's why we instead call them FRIENDS.
Having friends really can change a lot of things, it can change an entire day into something happy, into something useful in our lives. It can change an emo shit day into a day full of joy and laughter.
I should suppose that many people have many different interpretations of friends, remember that we always get an email saying things like "friends are will do this and this and that" and SMSes like "A good friend is like a bra, it holds tightly to your heart".
I guess that all people have their own way of saying what friends are, and what they do for them. There is no general definition for friends but the only thing that may link all these strangers together is their "desire of not wanting to see you in distress". Talking about other qualities, I guess it will be quite hard to think of what a friend would have.
To me, the best friend ever is probably a soul friend.
Labels: Inspiration?
Sunday, November 09, 2008
98th Movement
There comes a point of time in life where everything comes tumbling down on you. But one would have to understand that that is not God's doing, but rather one's own actions. It's a cause and effect thing, something we may all blame the Lord for.I know 'cause life just crashed on me, but I noticed it happened because of what I failed to do in the past 10 months. But I'm not going to talk about it...
I've done some sypnopsis for the three films I was talking about in the latest FYP ADVENTURES. I'm doing this so at least I can create some hype for the sales... =/
The Boy who wanted to Change the World
Michael is a child who's had a rough time, he's only 12 and he's seen more than his fair share of life. Walking through torny bushes of his journey, he makes a plan elaborate for a 12-year old to start his world-changing campaign.
But why does he want to change the world? This film will leave you pondering on how he could have, would have changed the world.
Ayatollah of Rock and Rolla
Therese Pennefather is a normal RP girl, but when she gets rejected by every band in RP, she forms her own to show what she can really do.
Take the music from the 60s and replay them in your music players 'cause it's time to ROCK!
God Bless the Broken Road
A prelude to Anam Cara, this tells the story of Matthew and his younger sister Sarah. Their parents leaving them to save themselves from the poison of the world, but Matthew giving Sarah the hope that he can find.
What Matthew doesn't know is that Sarah is dying soon, sooner than he expected.
Labels: FYP Adventures, Inspiration?
Monday, November 03, 2008
96th Movement
Do we actually know what we are saying when we say "that doesn't make any sense!" or "what kind of logic is that?"
Just what is our standard of sense here? What does it mean for something to be "sensible" or "logical" to us? Must it be proven by sense? Must it be something seen before in order for us to make sense? Or is it something that is feasible or believeable? If it is so, where does God come in then?
Does God make any sense? Judging by the standards of the world, I should think many people would feel that God's miracles are "nonsense" or "illogical". But yet walk down into any church and ask if they believe in miracles of God and they go "yes, of course" but ask if they believed that there is a human with three eyes and six ears they go "what? That doesn't make any sense!"
Why is it so hard to believe a man can have three eyes and six ears? If we believe that God is all-powerful, why can't he make a man like that? Don't get me wrong, there's a difference between believing and gullibility. If I told you that God created a Satanic cult and you believe it, that's gullibility.
One must understand that we have faith in God not because we have to, but because we believed His words and what He did for our ancestors mentioned in the Bible. We must stop this mentality of "believe because we have to believe" and start to adopt the mentality of "God has done something for me, that is why I have faith in Him".
But yet we must also understand that God does miracles in a human way, a way that we understand. Not in a way that is too complex for us, the world today is quite dumb. He must have foreseen that the people of today will use science as their "God" to prove that God exists. I will touch on that later.
Let's give a few examples to see how God makes miracles human:
The parting of the Red Sea
Story: Moses and the Israelite slaves were escaping from the Egyptians, to save His people, God led them to the Red Sea. He ordered Moses to strike his staff on the ground and when he did, the sea parted and became dry land, allowing safe passage for the Israelites to cross.
Explanation: Scientists have discovered that at a certain time of the year, strong winds blow at the Red Sea, forcing it apart. The winds are so strong that it actually "parts" the Red Sea into dry land.
The Mysterious Staircase (some of you may not have heard this one)
Story: In the city of Santa Fe, back in the 19th Century, Loretto Chapel faced a difficulty of not having a staircase leading up to the top floor. The place was too cramped to construct a proper zig-zag staircase and there was no room for a pillar if a spiral staircase was to be built. They spent 9 days praying to St.Joseph, human father of Jesus Christ and carpenter. On the last day, a carpenter came forward and said he could built a staircase for them. And by himself, he constructed the staircase. This is the miraculous part: the stairs was constructed without any glue or nails and stood without a central support. The carpenter then mysteriously left without waiting for payment.
Explanation: Some have argued that the staircase can stand because of the pressure applied by the steps unto the center of the staircase. Like an eye of the tornado, the "central support" in there is actually the invisible force/pressure by the steps.
Miracles present (something extra):
1) The stairs was constructed without any glue or nails, it came as if it was a whole piece by itself
2) The stairs functioned without any visible central support
3) The wood could not be found in the entire region of Santa Fe
4) The stairs had 33 steps, the age of Christ when He died
Back to the entire topic, does all that make sense to you? Some of you may even say, "crazy carpenter, never get payment first", but please FOCUS on the miracles present there! None of them may have made sense to you at first, but after some "scientific" explanation, you may have said, "oooo...no wonder...". So who makes more sense, science or God?
Where is our faith in now? The faith in the fact that science can explain everything or the fact that God is the center of attention? Some scientists have managed to say that if there really was a God, he would be a ball of energy. Why? Because in order to create the universe, he would need energy. Here's my argument: BUT HE IS GOD!!! God can do supernatural things in His own little ways!!! Just a breath of His and life can be made. Just what is wrong with all you science freaks?
It is time to see where our faith lies, does it tilt to our version of "sensibility" or does it tilt more to God's "sensibility"?
Labels: Inspiration?
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
91st Movement
What do you think of when you see certain people?When I see...
IRIS
I think of how she actually saved me from certain insanity
WEN HUI
I think of what a failed senior I became
CHERIE
I think of how I can save what's left of her innocence
SIEW KENG
I think of how bad a god-father I was
PRISCILLA (E25D)
I'm reminded of the other one
NASRIN
I think of how the world spins and how people try to be faster than that spinning
MY DAD
I think of how I want to be like him
DOROTHY
I think of how crazy she is, most probably the same as me, since she's the only one who is willing to play the random game with me
SHAZLY
I'm reminded that I'm not alone in this world, positively and negatively
ALYSSA/REGINA/HYACINTH
I think of how TOG (and I) failed to keep them
SHI HUA
I think of how fast-paced society is and how it's making people psycho
YUEEN YEE
I think of how this world can still be saved from the overpowering pressure of the society
MELISSA
I think of how laid back I am, and how much a low-life am I compared to her artistic brain
BRIAN
I think of what the society is turning our youth into
GERALDINE/KEVIN PAUL
I think of where is the nearest exit
THE MOLE IN MY EYE
I think of how only Stella was the one to notice it
STELLA
I think of how dumb I was to have had a crush on her
DANIEL TAY
I think of how lucky he is
CAI YI
I think of how I'm going to make her feel safe in this hostile world
ENID
I think of how I'm not keeping in contact with my friends
That's it then...
Labels: Inspiration?
Friday, October 17, 2008
86th Movement
Dears, you must all dance like no one is watching...
You must be free...
Labels: Inspiration?
Monday, October 13, 2008
85th Movement
Sometimes it's exciting to see the trees bend back and forth, swaying to a rhythm designed in your mind. Trees are marvelous beings, they stand so sturdy and straight without needing any source of technology at all.
I think because of the environment they live in, it has made them tough, trained to withstand the wind and the rain, the storm and anything that tries to destroy it naturally.
I think that is how we humans have to act.
We have to face the troubles life throws at us because that is how life is, what is life without a single obstacle? We have to stand firm against the wind, the storm and make sure we are still standing upright and firm after that.
Then there is another story:
There was once a bunch of trees, so close together that their leaves were overlapping each other's. One day, a single tree decided to journey out, to venture forth away from its own community, so it eventually found its way out of the bunch and rooted itself far away.
It wasn't long before a storm came, and it was so strong that it uprooted the single tree in the field.
But the trees that were still in a bunch were hanging strong, losing only a few leaves in the process. They still stood firm and steady, and the fallen tree regretted in dismay.
Easy to pick out the moral: We cannot survive by ourselves in this world, we need the help of other people. We need community, friends, family, anyone whom we can trust and rely on. With them, any storm that comes by will be long forgotten.
Labels: Inspiration?
Friday, October 10, 2008
83rd Movement
Being different is not so hard
be someone like Bonaparte
Commit a Holocaust or two
Follow with a Black Plague through and through
But being a different and good
Is harder than wood
Be nice to someone
And you're the black one
They think they're all white
They think they're nothing like night
You just have to wait and see
Time, to them, will no longer be free
But coming again
Don't bother the rhymes
Just be yourself
Because YOU are different
Labels: Inspiration?
Thursday, October 09, 2008
82nd Movement
I was washing my brother's army boots yesterday, got them sunk in the mud like last week.And I really was wondering a lot of things when I washed them, and then you'll go like "JUSTIN!!! WHY IN THE WORLD ARE YOU THINKING SOOOOO MUCH WHEN YOU'RE WASHING ARMY BOOTS???"
Well, it's not my mind, it belongs to God, so He can do whatever He wants to do with it. But in this case, He made me think.
SAF boots are made in a very special way: when they get sunk into mud, you wash them and with the water on, it looks very clean and black, no stains at all. But when the sun dries everything up, the mud stains appear on it, showing its true colors.
So now, what's it got to do with anything? Come on, doesn't it remind you of something?
Alright, I'll say it. It reminded me of how life is (like DOH!)
We humans always try new means and ways to cover up our evil and bad past (or habits) and use "water" to make sure that no one sees it. The problem is, when the sun comes up, the water dries up, and everything will be (literally in some sense) brought to light.
So what do we have to do in order to change our lives?
That's easy, Justin here is offering you a remedy, a lifetime cure to lead a new life!
Here it is: WASH YOUR BOOTS
It isn't difficult, just take your boots, and scrub them for a day or two. In life, it may take more than a day or two. IT could take a year, or a few in fact. But the main focus is to wash away those evil and bad things that have made your life so miserable and dirty. That is the only way to come out of your closet without shame.
So, please, stop spraying water on your boots, go and WASH them.
Labels: Inspiration?
Thursday, October 02, 2008
79th Movement
This is a painting done by renown painter Piet Mondrian, the artist whom almost everyone regards as a painter who paints without feelings.
True, I can't get any feeling through this painting, who can? o__0
But what struck me were the colours that were around it...the red and the yellow are all stuck in their own squares, big and huge.
But look at the blue and the small strip of red at the side, so small yet it has bridged many lines (the red strip continues on to another painting)!
That's how life is going to be, the small will do great things but the great and huge cannot do anymore but stay and wait in their own little squares (LOSERS). The red and the yellow squares are so...caught up with themselves that they don't move out, they don't shrink (humble) themselves so that they can help other people or expand their might. Because of other people's pressure and problems, they become stuck.
But the smallest person, the little blue strip can, with his tiny ego and little acts of kindness, bridge many lines (human problems) across and fnally will make everything perfect again. =]
Right, I'm a psycho.
Labels: Inspiration?
Sunday, September 28, 2008
74th Movement
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
72nd Movement
I walked back home after taking the bus, I bumped into my neighbour, an old man actually...and he gave me lots of insights.Imagine this, whenever you take a step forward, a line follows your step. For every step you take, the line follows you (horizontally, across your toes). Which means, if you do not move, the line stays.
Now, compare the line to the word "boundary". Seem familiar now? What I'm trying to say is that boundaries and restrictions are set by US and not by anyone else. It is just the way of thinking of other people that makes us set our own boundary.
But the boundary is just a line, it's just a stupid moving line that moves along with your imagination. Truth is, there is NO boundary in the first place. There must be no such thing at all.
Boundaries...restrictions...SCREW THEM ALL
Labels: Inspiration?
Monday, September 22, 2008
71st Movement
Don't you feel sick and tired of people controlling your lives? Acting like "traffic lights" to your life, in some the lights are always RED.Then there are the green arrows that give you a choice to "turn" to another option. But we ignore that 'cause we ain't going that way.
In that same way, God is like a GIGANTIC traffic light that we fail to notice. Sometimes He's a green, then He goes red and so on and so forth. But we FAIL to notice is that whatever He does, He does it because He LOVES us! But it is hard to liken love to a traffic light, since it is an inanimate, lifeless object that does not think but take orders.
But isn't that definition the human meaning of love?
Labels: Inspiration?