Thursday, May 31, 2007
31st May 2007 - Time: 8:44pm - Venue: Home

I will always remember this day...as I didn't imagine this day would come.
Today was my conductor's farewell party. I always thought he would stay until he retired. But I spoke too soon.
The party was fantastic...managed to catch up with old buddies from the band...good thing they still remember me...
I almost wanted to cry when they sang the birthday song to Mr Leng and when he gave out his speech. It was weird to hear that, as I didn't want to hear it. In my whole 4 years in CBSS band I never thought this day would come.
I also saw her today. She was wearing something I didn't think looked good on her. Purple stripes and all... :/
But I finally made a decision Raihan tried to tell me since day one:


That I should move on with life and get over her.


Sometimes you just gotta admit you two aren't a perfect match.
And sometimes you gotta admit that Life doesn't always give you what you wish for.
It may take some time for me to get over her...but I believe I can do it.



Sometimes, I like to think of God telling me this:

You have learnt all there is about almost everything. The only thing left to learn, is how to say goodbye.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007
29th May 2007 - Time: 8:06pm - Venue: Home

Good news aaaannndddd bad news.

Good news:
The farewell party is changed to Thursday, which is a holiday, so I won't have to skip enterprise class on fridae. That means no X on my grades.

Bad news:
The farewell party is changed to Thursday, which means I HAVE to be present on FRIDAE, which is enterprise day. And if I don't go, I would get an earful not only from my mom, but fom my dad as well, which means it COULD be hell for me.


And...also for today, it was a little fun. The PS (Problem Statement) was about a car crash incident and my team was working as the capacity of the police investigators. Our job was to question the people involved (in this case, Kelvin and Fang Yi) and get some facts out of them.
This presentation was better than my lousier ones. I bet this was the best of the lousiest ones I had. I hope my team like my presentation better than the previous ones.
Later I'm going to play DOTA, and maybe try my match again with Man Utd on FM (Football Manager)...






I hope I can see her on Thursday!!!!
XP

Monday, May 28, 2007
28th May 2007 - Time: 8:11pm - Venue: Home

Today was a little mental draining...especially the powerpoint...God knows how the presentation inflated to 2MB!!! So OMG!!!
But overall, the presentation was better than previous ones...at least it had the least loopholes ever...too good to be true...hahaha
I'm thinking of skipping school on Fridae to attend my Conductor's farewell buffet...must discuss with mum first (I'm mummy's boy!!! XP) He is more important than ONE enterprise module...lol
Apart from that, I guess everything went well...guess I should be happy about it...though I didn't do much for the worksheet today...





How can I move her heart???

Sunday, May 27, 2007
27th May 2007 - Time: 7:38pm - Venue: Home

Tiring day today...I went to play soccer just now...tried to play without shoes and then now my two big toes got blisters. Lol...
Went to eat lunch with my family and grandmum today...I always like to listen to her stories everytime. Today was about how she had come to Singapore...

It turned out that her parents came from Da Po, China (wonder where that is? Must ask Tony tomorrow), to Malaysia and settled down there. Then when the Japanese army came (the year was 1942, I think...) her family went to Singapore (the so-called infallible fortress then), probably thinking they would be safe there. Thats when she met my grandfather.
From what I remembered from a previous account she told me, her mother married her off to my grandfather because the Japanese were getting a little tight around their crotch area...(you guys know what I mean) So to protect my grandmother, my great-grandmother married her off.
She and Granddad set up a shop selling electrical appliances somewhere in Singapore. I can't remember where...I should ask her next time. They sold TVs, radios, fans, etc...but I guess they were all Japanese products, since the war wasn't over yet. She told me that she would drive to the shipyard every once a month (I think it's once a month, assumption) to get her goods for her shop.
When the war was over (my assumption, again) the government wanted to build something at where their shop was. So they compensated them with $20,000 and toe down everything there. No questions asked. I should ask her what they built there next time.
She also told me if she could walk, she would go visit her friends and her shop location. It would really bring back fond memories for her.



I hope I can help her with that, that is, if my dad allows me to. I would really like to help her relive the times of her youth. It would be the best gift for her a grandson can give.


And apart from that, today was a tiring day, 'nuff said.








Why can't I just be with her??? WHY???

Saturday, May 26, 2007
26th May 2007 - Time: 2:26pm - Venue: Home

Haha...just played soccer in the morning and had rehearsal in Church, St. Mary's Room...And I was selected into class...There was a cute girl I saw during the rehearsal. I can't say her name, or she would get the hint. lol...
I have two scrapes on my kness right now and they hurt so damn pain. I'm going for mass later at CTK at 5.30. That means I have to leave at about 4.30.
Oh yes, I'm watching Underworld:Evolution now. So I'll blog less and watch more.




Wonder if she hates me? Cause I feel that she's trying to avoid me...

Friday, May 25, 2007
My Favorite DOTA Hero so far

I tried out the other heroes like Zeus and Dwarven Sniper. But I like this hero the most so far...So I just list down the abilities for those noobies who are reading this...





Yurnero - JUGGERNAUT
Abilities:

BLADE FURY-
Causes a bladestorm of destructive force around Yurnero, rendering him immune to magic and dealing damage to nearby enemy units.
Lasts 5 seconds.

Level 1 - Deals 80 damage per second.
Level 2 - Deals 100 damage per second.
Level 3 - Deals 120 damage per second.
Level 4 - Deals 140 damage per second.

Cooldown: 30 seconds.

Level 1: 110 mana, 30 sec cooldown.
Level 2: 110 mana, 30 sec cooldown.
Level 3: 110 mana, 30 sec cooldown.
Level 4: 110 mana, 30 sec cooldown.



HEALING WARD-
Summons a Healing Ward that heals all nearby allied units' life.
Lasts 25 seconds.

Level 1 - Heals 1% of hit points per second.
Level 2 - Heals 2% of hit points per second.
Level 3 - Heals 3% of hit points per second.
Level 4 - Heals 4% of hit points per second.

Cooldown: 75 seconds.

Level 1: 140 mana, 75 sec cooldown.
Level 2: 140 mana, 75 sec cooldown.
Level 3: 140 mana, 75 sec cooldown.
Level 4: 140 mana, 75 sec cooldown.



BLADE DANCE-
Yurnero's cunning blade gives him a chance to deal double damage on each attack.

Level 1 - 10% chance.
Level 2 - 18% chance.
Level 3 - 26% chance.
Level 4 - 36% chance.

Passive



OMNISLASH-
Yurnero moves around the battlefield, slashing many enemies. Yurnero becomes invulnerable while Omnislashing.

Level 1 - Attacks 3 times.
Level 2 - Attacks 5 times.
Level 3 - Attacks 8 times.

Cooldown: 130/120/110 seconds.

Level 1: 200 mana, 130 sec cooldown.
Level 2: 275 mana, 120 sec cooldown.
Level 3: 350 mana, 110 sec cooldown.





Comments: I believe Yurnero is one of those Agility Heroes that can improve vastly on strength. Just buy about 3 items that are agility-based that fous on the speed of his attack and two other items that increases strength by a huge difference and the other last slot for whatever you want. I always pump the BLADE DANCE skill first and then the BLADE FURY. I rarely touch the HEALING WARD. I usually pump the yellow cross thingy before the HEALING WARD ability. and I always try to OMNISLASH the enemy hero when he's alone. Then I can slash 8 times at one go without getting any damage. =]

25th May 2007 - Time: 7:36 - Venue: Home

WA LAO~~~~~
My presentation today suck sia...I hate it man...not May Jun fault larhx...all her points (okay larh, not all, most) were good...but I did too many mistakes...I loopholed the whole presentation and made the WHOLE TEAM SUFFER!!! I'M SUCH A BA****D!!!!

Today actually wanted to go band one...but my junior say today no practice, sad sia...never got to see her...but I think she hates me sia...there's that aura of avoidance around her sia. Like she wanna get rid of me from her life as soon as possible...lol..maybe it's time to switch target arh...

Same as usual, walked to MRT with Quan Hui...played more DOTA...later going to Maple oso...hope Jun Shun and the others would be online...but I doubt so, since he say he rarely play already...and even if he online there would be a very BIG level gap arh...like 45 levels liddat...that's a lot for me already okay...at the rate I'm playing...






Wonder if God is reading all this? I bet He is...so I hope this would be considered a prayer...

Thursday, May 24, 2007
24th May 2007 - Time: 5:55pm - Venue: Home

First thing's first:
THE MARKS ON MY HAND ARE FADING!!!! HOW, HOW, HOW???!!! Maybe the next time I go back to band (thats tomorrow by the way) I can ask her to scratch me again. XD

Next:
My presentation today was a little sloppy. And I realised that some pictures on the 6P were on my slides too. I wonder if the facilitator now thinks that I saw the 6P...how, how, HOW???!!!
Here's what happened today-

1st Meeting: I volunteered to be the scribe. Did the FMT. Played a little bit of DOTA. I used Juggernaut and owned the computer.

1st Breakout: Played more DOTA. Owned more computer players. AI sucks when they play as [easy] and [normal]. They turn super insane when they set as [insane]...

2nd Meeting: The best 2nd meeting I had sia...The teacher made a scenario where I {yes, me} lost a phone and the whole class is a company. The "culprit" is Lynnette and the witness is Adi. But no one knew. NOT EVEN MEEEE...But of course everything was revealed in the end...hahaha

2nd Breakout: Went to eat with Quan Hui at Food Haven. Had a Chicken Cutlet Noodle that costs $3...rip off but good larh. Then went back to do the presentation. Was a little slack at first, then did the desgining...as always.

3rd Meeting: Presentation time....

And after that:
I walked to the MRT station with Quan Hui. Didn't talk much...lazy to talk larh...too tired after enterprise...lol

And now:
Now I'm blogging and later I'm going to play DOTA. I don't understand why I like it so much sia...haha...So I stop blogging now and go play...




Wonder how she's doing???

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
23rd May 2007- Time: 3:17pm- Place: Class W46M

It's going to be my turn to present soon. My team presentation is not done by me (for the first time!) I'm so glad I didn't do it sia, coz if I did, I would not be able to concentrate. Why? Staring at the scratch marks lor...lol
A few more questions only, then my turn le. hahahaha



I wish the scratch marks would stay forever there...

23rd May- In my Classroom W46M

I'm doing my FMT now, got nothing to say sia...seriously arh, I dunno wat the problem statement saying sia..later I blog again larh...
By the way, the claw marks are really still there, i stare at it every now and then XD

Tuesday, May 22, 2007
22nd May 2007- My first lousy Blog

Its at night now, I just created my blog. Wonder why I did it in the first place. I just came back from Chong Boon Band practice and found out a lot of changes, NEGATIVE changes. God knows why I still care for the band. I met Angie after that, she procceded to bite my hand out of fun. She clawed my hand too, feels good when the person you like is clawing at you XP I bet the marks will still be there tomorrow.
I also just did finish the Communication Module. as always, I did the powerpoint presentaion and now I feel I should stop doing for the time being to give others a chance. I can't always be doing the presentation ALL the time. Im also getting tired of doing it anyway. I need the inspiration to do it anyway, and because of recent unforeseen events, I have lost about 75% of it.
Very ironic isn't it? I appear happy all the time but I have so many scars deep in the shadows of my secretive heart.





A rebirth can never be a rebirth if you don't die first