Thursday, January 29, 2009
127th Movement

My saxophone playing is improving bit by bit, and I'm having another one-on-one session with Master Chia this coming Tuesday...

Now it's time to rethink about what I really want in life, last year I had thought of doing freelance scriptwriting and selling my works to different companies, get enough cash and eventually cough up a good movie or two in a span of ten years.

But now, I really want a family, and that family isn't going to be able to survive if I do not have a basic job that keeps a stable income. Whatever I want just contradicts with whatever I need.

And then, to add on to my troubles, there's FYP and the occasional "stab-in-the-face" and other stuff that pull you down. I'm working on them one by one and slowly but surely I'm getting across them. Nothing in life is impossible, especially when you have two lovely god-daughters as your source of motivation.

Sometimes I look up into the sky, and hope for a chance to do something worthwhile, because from what I see here in my life, nothing is making my life more meaningful, not even Church. Perhaps it's my fault for not being able enough to undertake certain things, or it could be that God has chosen me to play the backstage all my life, if that is so, I won't give a complaint or two.

Alright, enough of my ranting, hopefully these few days would prove happier for me.

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