Saturday, December 22, 2007
Time: 2302 hrs - Venue: HQ

I saw her today
I saw her just now
She was beside me
Yet I made no sound

Why?

I fell in love
I fell literally
But yet who can say what lies ahead?
When love is involved

I tried my best
Did I even try?
I did what I could

Did you?

Voices in my head
Saying one after another
Waiting, just waiting for a chance to speak
And yet now I see

But do you really see?

When I speak, who listens?
When I listen, who speaks?
Am I alone?
Am I someone else?

I now know it doesn't matter
If I have a nice set of wheels
Or a Swiss bank account
As long God forbids
I am powerless

As long as this ring of mine stays on my neck
I am no man
For if no courage is given to give the ring
What is a man without courage?

I try to impress
I try to shut up
I try many ways to think of how to attract her attention
Yet she does not see
And my friends do not know
Am I trying too hard?
Am I locking myself up?

AGAIN?

Silence, I say
Voices still speak
Voices that are mine
And no one elses'

We are here, boy, we reside in you
You cannot chase us out
We will live with you
We will feed with you
We will feel as you feel
And think as you think
But try as you may
We live with you

Perhaps it's better this way
I'm better off with my old friend
Who? You ask
No person, no man, no entity, I answer
A good old friend called Loneliness