Friday, December 21, 2007
Time: 1643 hrs - Venue: HQ

I miss her more than ever, but her at one church and me at the other, being far apart and knowing she doesn't like you at all makes you feel like ramming into a bar.

Literally.

Going for confession tonight. I will see her but I'll try to just look at her only. Oh God, I feel like crying right now.

God knows why He invented crying. This world should be a world of love and happiness, not pain and regrets.

Brings to mind on what Geraldine Paul said about having "two lives". Jovial on the real world and emo-istic on the blog. But I really don't know how to express my self in speech anymore, and no one I can turn to, except God of course, He sees everything after all.

Not everyone knows how I feel, no, NOBODY knows how and what I feel. Only I know...only I know how to get through this. I know I can...

At least, I THINK I can...