Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Day 149 Year 2008

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Right, who am I kidding?

All these years, I've been trying so hard to find where I really belong, and I've always failed. I mean, I went through several classes both in scondary school and polytechnic and even getting involved in TOG, but somehow I just get the backstab and cold stare and the fear of being arrowed everytime I get in there. Sure, some of you say it's my fault, but who bothers to find out why?

The point I'm trying to drive at? My class sucks, and I'm trying so hard to get blended into TOG.

I mean, starting with the class, I know I'm not supposed to be there. I used to look forward to going to class in Year One, with the BORING modules like Science and Enterprise. Now I have fun modules but now going to school is like going to man's version of Hell. No one there understands me and they probably never will. Although there are a few in there that try. I don't like bitching about people but really don't have a choice now anyway. This is where I write my feelings and they are true to the last word.

Then there's TOG, no backstabs here but sometimes some people in there can be such an ass showing off what they have when I know about it a long time ago, like c'mon, who're you trying to impress? Get a grip, find something more worthwhile.

Who am I kidding, I don't think I belong in this world anyway, no thoughts of suicide, I'll just live day by day.

Sometimes, life becomes such a bitch and bastard, doesn't it?

And those people who want to share my problems, please stop wasting your time, I don't SHARE my problems. I lift them by myself and solve them on my own, if I get crushed by its weight, leave me be. The most you can do is arrange for my funeral.

Yeah, this post is damn negative, but I have to do it somehow. I got no diary and I don't believe in talking to a book.

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