Melody's Marrow

164th Movement - The End (Final Post)

2009-06-22T08:01:00.002+08:00

I don't know where to start.

The title should say it all, and no, this isn't a joke, I'm quitting blogging.

Of course, it hurts me to do this, because blogging has become a part of my life. Even if it is harmful, it'll still hurt in a single instant for a while.

But the fact remains that this has to end somehow.

What Kevin said some time ago was right, if I remembered correctly, people blog because most of the time they have no one else to talk to, to converse with. And having cybernetic complaints about the society isn't going to help either, so I guess it IS time to shut this down.

But for my avid readers, don't get disheartened, I could be back in a year or two X)

For now, I would still leave this link here, www.music-monologues.blogspot.com would still stand and hopefully Blogger won't delete it. This blog has come a long way since its time when I was in Year 1, it was faythrebirth.blogspot.com back then. It changed to decepticon-diary.blogspot.com after a while and then to what it is now.

For people who saw this blog as a place of sanctuary (which I don't think anyone would have), I'm terribly sorry. For those who want to catch up on my past or relive the funny posts I had, this blog will still remain here.

Regret? Maybe.

This isn't farewell or whatever, I'll still be alive even after this blog becomes idle, it's just another phase I'm going through.

So for the sake of TOG and myself, this blog has to be gotten rid of.

I just want to thank everybody who walked past here before, for taking time to read and tag. Now I've given you one less blog to jump at, cool ain't it? =)

I know some of you may want to convince me not to stop blogging, but I've made up my mind, ever since Saturday I felt what Kevin said was right, I've changed somehow...some way, I'm different from what I was a few years back.

And to end off this long letter to people who will read it, I just want to say, "God bless and have a happy and safe journey through life."

God be with you,
Justin A.Faith
22nd June 2009

In this blog, there were:
145 Random Tunes
55 "Anything and Everything on my life"
25 emo shit things
38 inspiration?(s)
6 Short Stories
5 preachy(s)
3 Random Quotes
10 FYP Adventures
7 LOLs
53 Others

163rd Movement

2009-06-19T11:11:00.003+08:00

Helplessness

Indeed, all of us has felt that emotion at a certain point in our life.

And it sucks.

That was how I felt when I just heard everything from everyone, it was as if the world decided that I was to be Atlas, and bear the weight of the world on my shoulders.

But there is a difference of course, Atlas bore the world's weight because he had to, I am bearing the weight because I want to.

I used to question myself about my life, whether or not it would help if I did something small. I wanted to change the world, make sure it was a different place from what it was. But I couldn't, I was, and am, just a single man.

And just in a few days, God made sure He put me where I was supposed to be, a place of helplessness. A place where I could really feel the tension of pain and the intensity of hurt, for the past four days I have just heard from two people precious to me and my heart is torn.

Just how much does this have to go on?

God made man, and man reject God and His works, so why did God make man?

Was it a "they're going to hate me, but I'm going to love them anyway."

And then I remembered what a bunch of random people who came up to me a long time ago, they were evangelists, and they got me when I was folding flowers for my ex-girlfriend.

They said, "God's love is just like yours, your girlfriend left you, yet you are trying to get her back. It takes a lot of dignity to do that."

I had to agree.

But whatever His reason was, man is helpless against His will.

And we are all just instruments for a greater design, but some of us get hurt and torn along the way.

It's a fairly...sickening feeling.

But you just have to accept it, because after all, God is a being you wouldn't want to mess around with.

Helplessness, the only words that would come after it are "I'm sorry."

Random tune

2009-06-17T22:33:00.001+08:00

If you're willing

Could you help me take care of this for now?

Random tune

2009-06-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

I miss you

really

Random tune

2009-06-15T13:53:00.001+08:00

Yes that is me and yes, that is a pool and yes, you know what happened next

162nd Movement

2009-06-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

Hey.

Yeah, feel like having a good emo-ing session now, but I still wonder why people want to be an emo, it definitely isn't cool...

And then, my daughter asked me the other day..."Daddy, are you suffering?"

What else could I say..."I'm not." And if it wasn't on MSN, I'd smile at her. The worst part is, I probably half-lied to her. Because, after all, I ain't EXACTLY suffering. Of course, every person wants a better life...but I'm kind of contented with what I have.

Looking at the rate my life is going...yes, I am contented. I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am I am...

I miss her, I just do.

Random tune

2009-06-12T09:46:00.004+08:00

It always comes at night

when no one is around

when you are lying on your bed

and you see a friendly face

that is when it comes around

---

It acts like a friend

smiling at first

then laughing at you

as it creates a world

full of deceit and lies

and mechanical lullabies

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Trapped is your first thought

falsehood comes next

sometimes there is screaming

or for the sadists, beaming

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It happens when you worry

it happens when you cannot sleep

it happens when you fear

and it happens when you just teared

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Laugh all you want

but do remember

when it is your turn to be visited

don't forget to bring a camera

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Random tune

2009-06-11T22:53:00.003+08:00

KING: Knight, move your position to the west flank!

KNIGHT: But that will leave you unguarded!

KING: Let it be, I shall fight off this imbeciles myself! This was my mistake, and I will end it!

KNIGHT: But your majesty...

KING: GO! Take the civilians with you, save whatever you can!

KNIGHT: Yes, your highness...

BISHOP: You majesty!

KING: Bishop, you have given me strength throughout these years, and for that I thank you.

BISHOP: You can still save yourself, your majesty...

KING: No, I will bear the sins of the past, I will end everything here.

PAWN: They've broken through...ARGGGHH!!!

ROOK: Your majesty, please at least allow me the honour of fighting by your side.

KING: Very well, Bishop, lead the Queen out, she is our last hope.

BISHOP: Yes, your majesty.

ROOK: Your highness, they've broken through both castle towers.

KING: Then we shall be the bait. ROOKS, STAND YOUR GROUND!!!

--end--

Random tune

2009-06-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

So maybe just for now

Could you let me go?

161st Movement

2009-06-07T18:02:00.001+08:00

Okay, it's been quite a while since I've posted anything decent. I figure my blog readers have all gone away.

But for all you loyalists out there, thanks for perservering! 'Cause I really didn't have much to blog about in the first place, 'cept for the fact that FYP has driven me to the ground. They say that FYP tears people apart, I'm going to have to wait and see if that is true.

I'm also directing a play that's set on June 28th, for those who know the parish of Christ the King, come on down and watch! I'll be releasing the dates etc. soon on this blog and Facebook.

Random tune

2009-06-06T16:49:00.002+08:00

Contrary to the popular belief that Zhou Yu and Zhuge Liang were great enemies, both had in fact the same personality, but different masters. However, Lu Su, Chief Commander of East Wu after Zhou Yu's death, said:

"Zhuge Liang is truly a great man. Zhou Yu was narrow-minded and brought death upon himself."

At Zhou Yu's funeral, Zhuge Liang appeared to mourn his death, his lamentation so sincere that everyone present was greatly moved.

Zhou Yu's last words were:

"Heaven has created me, why must Zhuge Liang exist too?"

Random tune

2009-06-04T20:36:00.001+08:00

You're pissing me off

Random tune

2009-06-03T11:46:00.002+08:00

Join in the Masquerade

June 20th

Christ the King Church

Random tune

2009-06-01T22:31:00.005+08:00

Some photos to make you smile =)

Random tune

2009-05-31T20:35:00.000+08:00

You let me go

But I don't think I could ever do the same

Random tune

2009-05-30T19:25:00.003+08:00

I'm not running

It's a little different now

One of us is going down

Random tune

2009-05-29T22:12:00.001+08:00

I may be performing after all

Random tune

2009-05-29T13:24:00.002+08:00

Where do we go from here?

160th Movement

2009-05-29T07:58:00.002+08:00

OKAY~~!!!

I've changed my blog skin, just to brighten things up...no more emo black for me (even though I must admit that the rainbow was kind of hard to part with)!!! But this skin seems more emo, right? I mean, look at the words! Well, don't blame me, I kind of like the tree and the guy with the guitar (by the way, the words are actually lyrics from a song "Remembering You".)

I've been thinking a lot lately, must have been because I'm tired. I realized I've been to proactive in finding the "Mrs Right", but hey, who'd ever love a geek like me?

Precisely because...never mind, I'm just thinking too much =\

Moving on, TOG is printing their jerseys tomorrow, I'm tagging along though my jersey would be different, honestly if I sent Monday Soccer Boys into Youth Cup we would've won the entire thing hands down, not saying that they're lousy, but the fact that we Monday Soccer Boys know how to foul legally (contradictory?).

If we ever win that Youth Cup it'd be half a miracle.

159th Movement

2009-05-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

Okay...people say my posts have been very emo...so maybe it's the blog skin that's causing it, SO...I'm going to CHANGE IT!!! (since my daughter has been pressing me to change)

I'm gonna need some votes, who is going to vote that I should change it?

And oh by the way, today was the mid-point presentation for my FYP. It didn't go that bad, because it seemed that the world stopped and everyone listened to me, although I spent a ridiculousy 5 minutes on two slides (which meant the rest of my four team mates had to share another 5 minutes on another 5 slides). Apologies are in order!

And next week is my holiday, but I'm going to be very busy with my FYP, so people, call me out less often!

Random tune

2009-05-26T15:00:00.003+08:00

Most people ask me what is it that makes my house a "home", and I answer "well, the sense of 'home', I guess."

Then they ask me "what is the onething you'd identify with your home?"

I'd think for a while, and answer, "my door."

"why?"

"well, you see, whenever I come home late at night the door is the first one that greets me, and the door has always been there, since my parents bought the house. My beds change, my room changes, my toys change but my door remains. And whenever I see that door, it will tell me that this is my home and I have the key to it."

"what do YOU identify your home with?"

Random tune

2009-05-25T09:34:00.008+08:00

It's very easy to become a little Satan to others

But to become a little Jesus to others...requires much much more

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Satan requires you to betray your own life

Jesus requires you to love your own life

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Satan requires you to be above and control others

Jesus requires you to serve and love others

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Satan requires lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy, pride.

Jesus requires chastity, temperance, charity, diligence, patience, kindness, humility

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Satan requires your soul

Jesus requires your faith and your love

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Satan offers sex, drugs and money

Jesus offers eternal life and true happinness

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Satan offers a human lifetime of secular happinness, and an eternity of suffering

Jesus offers a human lifetime of secular suffering, and an eternity of happinness

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Satan will bring you to Hell

Jesus will bring you to Heaven

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Decide.

Random tune

2009-05-25T07:55:00.001+08:00

I would have given you all of my heart

But there's someone who's torn it apart

And she's taken just all that I had

But if you want to...

try and love again...

Random tune

2009-05-22T11:48:00.003+08:00

Did you know

- You can't name a folder as "CON" on your desktop?

- A giraffe has a blue tongue

- The actor for Barney is a real gay

- That almost 60% of the games are banned because of resemblance to reality

- You can't sneeze with your eyes open

- Everytime you sneeze, your heart skips a beat

- Birds are the closest direct descendants to dinosaurs

- The boomer in L4D could only just explode with no grime in the first beta test

- DoTA was first created not as an official map

- Bruce Lee has less than 1% fat in his body

- Japanese girls who reach the age of 15 are less likely to be virgin in Japan

- Google and Yahoo were using the same search engine because they were under the same brand, until they split up and Google got a better search engine

- The movie "Coraline" took seven years to complete, the book was completed in 2002

- Bill Gates has shares in both Apple AND Microsoft

- Xbox is not a stand-alone brand, it is a product of Microsoft

- Xbox 360 was released earlier than expected, in order to beat the PS3

- The first Final Fantasy game was named so because the company was experiencing bankruptcy due to some lawsuits, but Final Fantasy I eventually saved them

- Final Fantasy 13 is the first Final Fantasy game to be released on Xbox 360

- I'm suffering right now

158th Movement

2009-05-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

So yeah...I've been busy with FYP lately...thinking about it...trying to predict the future about it...but hey, unless I have the gift of prophesy I shouldn't do anything about it right?

I watched Wayne's World and Wayne's World 2 over the week on HBO Hits, not bad you know...haha.

I went out with my daughter today, a very good outing, since was buying stuff for a...certain someone, and you can be assured that it isn't a would-be girlfriend. But whatever it is, she's in for a big surprise! =D

I've been blogging less often, because I've been tired, very very tired lately, so yeah.

Random tune

2009-05-19T07:47:00.001+08:00

There're sheep running around my desktop...

They're doing handstands, desktop climbing and randomly flying in the sky

157th Movement

2009-05-16T16:23:00.002+08:00

Alright...FYP has been giving me challenges lately, I won't say stress because the more you say stress, the more stress you'll get. Psychologically that is true, so no arguments.

Also I'm a little worried about TOG now, though I know we are in safe hands...for now. I'll let God do the work while I do the rest of the things humans can do.

I don't have much to talk about, but thanks for spending time here, it shows you're thinking of me (even if you're dead bored or blog-hopping)

Random tune

2009-05-12T14:48:00.002+08:00

I may have lost you

But you will never ever lose me

156th Movement

2009-05-11T09:09:00.003+08:00

I'm not quitting blogging, I'm saying this because I know I haven't been blogging for sometime. LOL.

Tonight is finally and finally and again FINALLY soccer, I haven't been to soccer for like, YEARS and now is my chance to pick up my form. School so far hasn't been that great, I just look forward to days where I can just sleep and sleep and sleep.

Yeap, sleep is getting more and more important to me now because when I sleep, I imagine better. And the fact that I've got more than 2 scripts to write is giving my imagination far more importance than ever.

So people who think that my imagination isn't something that is worthwhile just 'cause I'm a childish brat, please think twice, imagination is what is making all of us insane and well...I'm contradicting myself, aren't I?

Random tune

2009-05-08T22:41:00.001+08:00

I'll carry my own burdens

And yours as well

Random tune

2009-05-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

All I want is for you to be happy

And after that, the world does not matter anymore

Random tune

2009-05-05T16:13:00.001+08:00

If you have nowhere else to run to

run to me

I will hold you till everything is safe

155th Movement

2009-05-05T07:56:00.003+08:00

STA (School of Technology of the Arts, under RP) started a website forum where you can post whatever you have to gain constructive feedback from facilitators and students. It is a private channel, and everyone puts up photos they have taken from past years.

I asked if I could put up stories, the answer was a positive, "anything you have" he said. I put up a story, and no one wants to read it.

This is how society has turned, people.

No one wants to read words anymore, "too boring".

But I don't have a choice, do I? Even only the facilitators and administrators want to see pictures, not anything else.

But what the hell, I decided not to post there anymore, waste of time since no one wants to read it anyway.

But other than that, I'm thinking that Code Geass Season Two would be better.

And on top of that, Gary's asking me to appear on his sister's birthday as MARIO!!!

Random tune

2009-05-04T10:46:00.003+08:00

This made me laugh on a dark dark day X)

Random tune

2009-05-03T21:52:00.001+08:00

Naive, ignorant, gullible

you made me this way

Random tune - 450th post

2009-05-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

There is a kind of love
That makes you want to stay
There is a kind of love
That makes you run away
And there is another kind of love
That helps you find a way
And another kind of love
That holds darkness at bay

There is a kind of love
That makes a man shiver
And another kind of love
That makes a light seem dimmer

There is a love
That makes use of feelings
And another kind of love
That seems so deceiving

There is some other types of love
That range from duty to selflessness
And there are types of love
That make one regret for life

But all in all
Love is still good
Love is supposed to make one feel happy
And if you are not in any kind of love
You better find one quick
Because love will just past you
As fast as a wink

154th Movement

2009-04-30T07:57:00.002+08:00

Hello,

I realised some of my blog posts are really quite EMO, but to clear the smoke...no I'm not. I'm just remembering good times so that my future would not seem so bleak. After all, I did really love her a lot. If you guys knew what I'd do for her and what I did for her, you'd know.

But life isn't always about that isn't it? Life isn't a destination, but rather a journey on which we are all together in, and we all walk the same path. Death, on the other hand, is a destination, and is the end for every journey no matter what road you take.

Life sometimes throws you lotsa things to bring you down, but it does that because it wants you to become stronger in every way. Just like how a mother and father would want their children to become strong men and women. This world is meant to prepare us for the next, in the eternal life.

I have to admit, moving on isn't easy, of course. Some of you know it's hard to get out of a vicious circle that'll bring you back to square one yet again. I'm incredibly saddened by people who get caught in it and yet I myself am caught in that circle.

Thanks for the memories.

153rd Movement

2009-04-28T09:54:00.003+08:00

I remember you used to sit opposite me and play the oboe
I remember those practices with our dual solo in "To Challenge the Skies and Heavens Above"
I remember you waiting for me at the same place with a lunchbox of food
I remember you always forcing me to eat everything you made for me
I remember you trying so hard to grow that little plant just outside the field for your Geography Project
I remember you smiling everytime I made a seriously cold and lame joke
I remember we used to just sit down and listen to music while we waited for the sun to set
I remember you always made me speak chinese when we met
I remember you'd always lay your head on my lap and ask me to sing you to sleep even though many others said I couldn't sing
I remember you'd put your ear on my chest and tell me how irregular my heartbeat was
I remember you'd wait for me to kiss you on the lips before telling you "good night"
I remember how your mum told me you'd wait by the phone at the time I always called
I remembered how you cried when your friend's mum pass away
I remember how excited you were when I asked you out for our first date
I remember how you used to laugh at my many funny experiences
I remember you blushed when I first held your hand
I remember you tried to kiss me on our first date and failed
I remember how you blushed even more when I tricked you into kissing my lips

Ah, but it's all over now.

Random tune

2009-04-27T15:22:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry but I'm crying so very hard right now

Random tune

2009-04-27T08:07:00.002+08:00

To all the ones who are misunderstood

Random tune

2009-04-26T19:07:00.000+08:00

Random tune

2009-04-24T13:16:00.004+08:00

And I heard as it were the noise of thunder

One of the four beasts saying come and see and I saw

And behold a white horse

There's a man going around taking names

And he decides who to free and who to blame

Everybody won't be treated all the same

There'll be a golden ladder reaching down

When the Man comes around

The hairs on your arm will stand up

At the terror in each sip and in each sup

Will you partake of that last offered cup?

Or disappear into the potter's ground

When the Man comes around

Hear the trumpets, hear the pipers

One hundred million angels singing

Multitudes are marching to the big kettledrum

Voices calling, voices crying

Some are born and some are dying

It's Alpha and Omega's kingdom come

And the whirlwind is in the thorn tree

The virgins are all trimming their wicks

The whirlwind is in the thorn tree

It's hard for thee to kick against the pricks

Till Armageddon no shalam, no shalom

Then the father hen will call his chickens home

The wise man will bow down before the throne

And at His feet they'll cast their golden crowns

When the Man comes around

Whoever is unjust let him be unjust still

Whoever is righteous let him be righteous still

Whoever is filthy let him be filthy still

Listen to the words long written down

When the Man comes around

Hear the trumpets, hear the pipers

One hundred million angels singing

Multitudes are marching to the big kettledrum

Voices calling and voices crying

Some are born and some are dying

It's Alpha and Omega's kingdom come

And the whirlwind is in the thorn tree

The virgins are all trimming their wicks

The whirlwind is in the thorn tree

It's hard for thee to kick against the pricks

In measured hundred weight and penney pound

When the Man comes around

And I heard a voice in the midst of the four beasts

And I looked and behold, a pale horse

And his name that sat on him was Death

And Hell followed with him.

Laugh out LOUD

2009-04-23T09:54:00.003+08:00

Video of the day: Creature Comforts (actual audio with fake faces, see if you can guess the candidates!)

Text jokes:

1) Atoms have mass? I didn't know they were Catholic

2) Three convicts escaped a prison, and desperate with nowhere to go, they hid in a barn while the policeman chased them. One hid in a covered barrel, the other in a sack and the last guy in a stack of hay. The policeman walked into the barn, and noticing the barrel, tapped it. The convict promptly replied "meow meow", the policeman walked off to the stack of hay. He poked at the hay, and the convict responded, "woof woof", the policemanwalked off to the sack. He hit the sack and the convict, noticing what the others had done, replied, "potatoes potatoes".

3) A blonde walks over to a store, points at a product and says, "I want to buy that TV." The salesman replied, "sorry, we don't sell to blondes." The blonde becomes angry and goes off to dye her hair red, returns, points and repeats, "I want to buy that TV." With that the salesman says again, "sorry, we don't sell to blondes." The blonde, frustrated, goes for a complete makeover, so strong that her mother doesn't even recognize her, returns, points and says, "I want to buy that TV!" The salesman, frustrated, "WE DON'T SELL TO BLONDES!" The blonde gets frustrated, "I've went through so much, yet you still can see through my disguise! What did I do wrong?" The salesman sighs, "because, if you really wanted to buy a TV you wouldn't be pointing to that microwave."

Random Quotes

2009-04-22T18:18:00.002+08:00

Anonymous quotes

"Better a smartass than a dumbass"
"Ask me no questions, I'll tell you no lies"
"Build something that's foolproof and they invent a better fool"
"Artificial intellegence is no match for natural stupidity"
"Greed is the mother of all sins"
"If at first you don't succeed, others do so at your expense"
"Keep your mouth shut and your eyes open"
"The only lesson history has taught us is that man has not yet learned anything from history"
"Satisfaction is the death of desire"
"Proper preparation prevents piss-poor performance" (also known as the 6 Ps)
"Misery is the fastest breeding substance in the world"
"Life is a sexually contracted terminal disease"
"It's the horse you are the most unwilling to ride that will take you the furthest"
"In God we trust. The rest must pay cash"
"He who fights and runs away, lives to fight another day"
"Why do you try to fit in when you are born to stand out? "
"Wikipedia is aidepikiw spelt backwards, but why anybody would want to do that remains a mystery"
"Xylophones are like humans - there can be all kinds of notes and personalities"
"He who laughs last thinks slowest"
"Good friends are like stars — you don't always see them, but you know they are always there"
"Open minds and empty heads are not the same"
"Anyone can catch your eye, but it takes someone truly special to catch your heart"
"The world isn't perfect...but that's why its beautiful"
"Dead fish go with the flow... but I'm not dead yet"
"I don't fear death; it's re-incarnation I dread"
"I don't need your attitude, I have one of my own!"
"Right or Wrong is always dependent on the context"
"The only perfect lie is one that even the liar don't know the answer to"
"To ignore the past is to jeopardize the future"
"To live is to die"
"Wikipedia: Written by the people who use it for the people who use it. Oh-ho! "
"Underpromise and overdeliver"
"Violence isn't the answer, but it's a bloody good guess"
"War does not determine who is right, only who is left"

152nd Movement

2009-04-22T09:31:00.004+08:00

Aha, not long after the 151st...is the 152nd!

I'll be heading off to school later for a meeting...FYP meeting, I felt lazy to go at first in the morning but what the hell...just go and finish up the work. Unless something urgent crops up...

Oh, and I went to Ben and Jerry's for free ice cream! Went with Yahui, lined up for at least TWO hours just for TWO cones, Chocolate Macadamia and Chocolate Fudge Brownie. Not bad actually, after all, the ice cream costs FIVE dollars if bought.

And DOT, I'm still holding on to your Korea present and I can't give it to anyone else 'cause IT'S GOT YOUR NAME ON IT!

151st Movement

2009-04-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

Aha, a new blog post after a good old video. I always loved that video, brings me joy everytime I watch it now.

Second day of school has been a good day, first day wasn't so bad. I spy with my little eyes a few nice guys and girls, hopefully the coming days would be better.

FYP meeting tomorrow, I kinda don't like FYP now, the passion's gone because it's so screwed up, not because of the team but because of the topic the school set for us. Not that I hate it, but I think I can do better in other areas.

But as always, we all just have to tahan our way through eh?

And oh yeah, finally soccer after three weeks!

Random tune

2009-04-20T09:35:00.002+08:00

Finally, a video after more than a month!

150th Movement

2009-04-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

A little updates...

SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!!!

Yes, it sucks. But I kinda miss school, so...no worries eh?

Just watched TAKEN (starring Liam Neeson), it is a great movie to watch, it exceptionally moved me because well, I have two daughters and let's just keep it at that...

I won't blog so much, doesn't mean I'm quitting blogging. I'm just praying that my classes will be nice people with no backstabbing S.O.Bs.

So, yay.

Random tune

2009-04-16T21:47:00.001+08:00

No one has ever made me feel so important in my life

Random tune

2009-04-16T09:25:00.001+08:00

TOG appears on Catholic News, Daniel Tay reports after watching the play "The Fallen Ones"

http://www.ucanews.com/2009/04/15/youth-theater-group-brings-word-of-god-to-life/

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2009-04-15T14:09:00.001+08:00

The story of Tatty Teddy

http://sparklette.net/archives/691/tattyteddy.htm

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2009-04-14T19:47:00.003+08:00

Under the request from Liu Bei, Cao Cao sent Xiahou Dun to engage Gao Shun. Xiahou Dun, however, lost the battle, during which his left eye was struck by an arrow. After personally leading an army to defeat Lü Bu, Cao Cao compensated Xiahou Dun by promoting him to Jianwu General (建武將軍). He was said to have yanked the arrow fired by enemy general Cao Xing out of his eye and devoured his own eyeball to instill fear in his enemies.

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2009-04-12T16:15:00.002+08:00

Like every tree

Stands on its own

Reaching for the skies

I stand alone

I share my world

With no one else

All by myself

I stand alone

149th Movement

2009-04-10T21:05:00.002+08:00

Good Friday...

Why do they call it "Good" when you died so horribly for us?
Why is it called "Good" when love was crucified?

You gave your life for people you knew, but people who didn't love you. You gave your life for the past, present and future, and saved us from eternal damnation.

And yet here I sit, going through everyday, alone, ungrateful, as are many others. How does one repay such a sacrifice?

"For God so loved the world He gave His only Son, that whosoever knew believed in Him should not perish but would have everlasting life."

"For God did not send His son into the world to be its judge but to be its saviour."

"For it is by God's grace that you have been saved through faith. It is not the result of your own efforts, but God's gift, so that no one can boast about it."

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2009-04-08T13:36:00.008+08:00

Say the one you love is the only person you know in your life

Would it be love that pulls you to that person then?

Now say two people of the same opposite gender are the only people you know in your life

How would you choose which one to love?

Now, say you know no one in your life

Would you know what is love?

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2009-04-08T00:01:00.002+08:00

Please let me love you

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2009-04-06T23:16:00.003+08:00

Being in NS isn't so bad
You shouldn't be feeling the least bit sad
And yet whenever the skies seem to gloom
The end of the world starts to loom

Dont't worry about the Sergeant
Or the Colonel, whichever comes first
Worry more about living
A life not of survival
But of principles

Hold fast and hold true
For the only thing that differentiates you from others
Are your morals and your principles

God be with you Shaz!.

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2009-04-06T17:16:00.002+08:00

Giving up is no option

Finishing it is the only way

148th Movement

2009-04-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

Now seriously, I think I'm being an irritating fart to others.

You know, it's those times, where the person says it's all right, but you know something's terribly terribly wrong, and you know it's not the person saying that he/she is busy.

Maybe I'm sensitive, or it's just something all guys go through. But I can't help it, because as a matter of fact, I'm being irritated by the fact that people are finding me irritating. I know there's something wrong with me somewhere, but I just can't put my finger on it.

I so want to help, to be a good friend but it seems what's stopping me is not the other party, but myself.

And yeah, surely I'm wasting half my time at TOG, 'cause well, I'll never do what I love in there, ever. But what the hell, let me run my course first.

When life throws you lemons? Well, let it keep throwing lemons at you and after everything is done, throw it back and laugh.

Dear Sarah

2009-04-05T16:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Sarah,

It has been some time since I saw you, and I am definitely missing you much. I long to see you smile genuinely again in the golden sun and hug you tight, never letting you go.

But unfortunately circumstances have forced me to be able to communicate through written words on paper, and I am terribly sorry for everything that I have failed to do for you.

But I certainly hope my letters will bring you the hope of being able to meet again, I pray that God will me to meet you and love you again. But for now, this will have to do, and there are certain things that worry me.

Like now, I have heard from your mother that you have been making hasty decisions without thinking most of the time. This worries me, and I wish to help you.

When making decisions, it is important to understand what you are doing and why you are doing it. When you are stuck on a situation, you must stop, think and pray. It is always best to choose the path which ends with love, for God is love, and His ultimate plan for us is love in all its forms.

When making a decision, you must not, and try to NEVER, hurt anyone. As a soldier, I was often taught that we cannot stop the damage from being done, but what we can do is to minimize the effects of it.

I want you to remember, Sarah, that we cannot help it when things happen to us, it is not up to us to decide what life throws in our face. What we can decide, however, is what to do in the time that is given to us.

God be with you,

147th Movement

2009-04-04T17:37:00.002+08:00

Ctrl+A

I'vegotmanythingstosaybutthewordswon'tjustcomeoutofmymouth.

Ineedtofindawaytoconvinceyouandtoconveymyfeelingstowardyou.

WhatI'mtryingtosayisthatIreallyloveyouandIknowyouwillneverevereverloveme.

ForaslongasIliveIknowyouwillneverevenconsiderme.

ButIreallywanttosayhowIfeeltowardsyouandthisistheonlyway.

ButIdoubtthatyouwillgetthismessage,becauseyousimplydon'tcare.

Justlikeeveryoneelse, IhavetounderstandbecauseIamdifferent.

Andlikeeveryoneelse, youwantsomeonenormalandnotdifferent.

SoIjustwantedtosayagain:

Iloveyou.

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2009-04-02T14:20:00.003+08:00

Even if all fall away from you

I will never fall away

NEVER

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2009-04-01T22:52:00.006+08:00

What happened to Sarah? Remember some of you wrote how Sarah died and what happened to her...I'm here to continue the story to show the effects of your decision.

DOT's decision

DOT wrote: "she slit her wrists and left her blood to flow in the fields"

Effect: Sarah's death did not just end there, her father was convinced it was due to his absence that she died, and became saddened with depression. His wife hanged herself soon after Sarah's death, unable to take the impact. Sarah's father lived on to tell the tale, but even if he dies, the red tulips that were once yellow would be enough to tell the sad story of Sarah.

Shaz!'s decision:

Shaz! wrote: "Sarah faked her death & migrated to Russia to be an English teacher!"

Effect: Her parents never knew of her false death, her mother hanged herself soon after, convinced that she was dead. Her father continued to live on, but sadly and with a heavy heart. Sarah on the other hand, was alive, fine and well in Russia. She married a man, had two children and was blessed with a peaceful life. But life always has hard knocks, especially in Russia where hunky men are always looking for women...

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2009-04-01T09:07:00.003+08:00

Awright! Time for some of life's updates!

I've been stuck on Facebook, to the point that I'm doing more than 10 quizzes in 30 minutes! Shocking, isn't it?

And yes yes, I saw a girl at Church yesterday! Her name's Nicole, RCIY (so non-Catholic, on the way to baptism), probably around 18 years old and Brother Terence describes her as "not a holy person, but (I quote) has faith stronger than anyone." Heh heh, hint hint. It's hard to find a girl like that now.

Oh right, GUYS! There is "The Fallen Ones" play coming up on 9th April 2009, from 9.30pm to 11pm! Don't miss this chance to view the Passion through the eyes of two very important people in the Passion!

145th Movement

2009-03-30T17:36:00.004+08:00

Love is a very powerful and yet a over-used and underestimated word these days.

Especially with youthful men and women, who want so much to "explore" outside their textbooks and boring social lives. I am particularly disgusted at the growing number of teenagers who treat sex as the epitome of a relationship.

Especially guys, who wants to "get in her pants".

And why? For the sake of boasting, and for the pleasure of it.

And to "get into her pants", they always say what the girls want to hear:

"I love you"

"You are the one"

"I'll never leave you"

"I'll always be here for you"

"I love you"

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2009-03-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

Tonight I've fallen and can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up and know the stars are holding you tonight

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2009-03-29T15:40:00.003+08:00

List of items bought from MacPherson warehouse sale

1) Umbro soccer boots (blue) x2 = approx $15 each
2) Goalkeeper gloves (blue) x1 = approx $10
3) Two jerseys (yellow and black + blue and white) = approx $15 each

So altogether...$70? Quite cheap for a bunch of soccer gear.

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2009-03-28T20:57:00.002+08:00

Picture of the week: Kudos to DeviantArt.com

Text jokes:

1) A neutron walks into a bar and asks "How much for a drink?" The bartender calmly replies, "for you? No charge."

2) Two cannibals are eating a clown, one says to the other, "Does this taste funny to you?"

3) One day, three men find a magical lamp. They rub it, and a genie appears. The genie grants them one wish each, with that the first man says, "I want to be three times as smart!" The wish is granted, and he starts mentioning the Theory of Relativity flawlessly. The second man, impressed at it, says, "Twenty times as smart for me!" The wish is granted and he can flawlessly recite the bible not only forward but backwards as well. The third man smiles, "A hundred...no, a THOUSAND times as smart!" The genie sighs at his request, and *poof*, he turns into a woman!

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2009-03-26T22:16:00.003+08:00

"James! It's been so long! Have you seen my daughter? She should be 18 by now!"

"Mike? Oh my gosh, it IS you, Mike."

"My daughter, Sarah, where is she?"

"*sigh* She would have been 18 this year."

"James, James, what do you mean?"

"She died when she was 13, last seen playing in the field."

"James...how? Why?"

"I'm sorry, Mike."

Write her death, and so she will be remembered.

How did Sarah die?

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2009-03-26T17:27:00.002+08:00

The sense of touch is a very underestimated power of man.

Touch in itself can transmit a message, good and bad, and touch is the best way to convey love and hate, not words.

When we hug someone, we send the message of warmth and love to the recipient, we also send comfort and consolation depending on the situation. But yet it can also harm people, like when we hit someone we tell the person a certain negative emotion going through us.

And when we hug someone or something close, we get some sort of feeling as well, and sometimes it's so overwhelming we cry, or we don't want to let go.

When this power is used in the right way, the world will change, starting with each one of us.

143rd Movement

2009-03-26T09:45:00.004+08:00

Alright, I have to admit, ever since Therese invited me to Facebook, I've been there ever since.

One of the fun things in there is that "Magic 8 Ball" thing, where they ask random stuff about your friends. So me, Shaz and Alex were on the laptop, answering random questions like "Do you think Therese Grosse would ever bungee jump to impress friends?" or even things like "Have you ever had a crush on Dehui Chua?"...like what the hell man.

I may have to do some school work later, damn damn damn. So for now it's play time!

I'm sick, btw.

And yes, I still love my ex-girlfriend.

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2009-03-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

Where did all the good people go?

Did they take the last signs of hope with them?

142nd Movement

2009-03-23T11:53:00.002+08:00

I thought for a while before writing this, but no one should get any wrong ideas, haha...

I love...

the way both my daughters actually show care to me
when people talk to me about their problems, and I actually help them with it
many people, but only faithful to one
World Wrestling Entertainment, because after all, it IS entertainment
sitting at home, alone, thinking
solitude, to sum up the previous sentence
playing soccer, especially when I'm not ill or have nothing to do
old movies and old songs
laughing at every minor joke, but not really the major big ones
PAP
lying that I love PAP XD
movies that have tragic endings
TOG
my ex-girlfriend, yes I still love her

In short I love many things, but only a selective few would be in my life and reciprocate it.

Not that I'm complaining... =]

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2009-03-21T22:48:00.002+08:00

Alright guys...

I'M BACK!!!

Yes, I'm really back, and I've got some 'splaining to do.

Okay, so 140th Movement was emo shit and stuff, but the thing is, I needed some time to recollect my thoughts, something like a reflection on life after a few years, so yeah, mine came just as fast as lightning and went just as fast.

The thing is, there are so many things in life that I have done, and yet the only ones that hit me hard are my failures, slip-ups and what not. The reaction I get from people are not always the best, I know, I've been there, but it's always a good thing to review the past few years to see what happened to your life.

Of course, I'm better now, thanks for all the encouraging tags (you know who you are) and sorry for my absence, I doubt some of you miss me though, haha.

So my last sorry this time is for this period of time when I was away, for those who were looking to my blog for some sort of entertainment or inspiration, I will not fail you ever again.

140th Movement

2009-03-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

I'm leaving this blog for a while, I need some time to clear some important thoughts.

In the meantime:

I'm sorry for everything

I'm sorry to Shazly for not being the friend you want me to be

I'm sorry to Dorothy for being an irritating asshole

I'm sorry to Enid for trying to act smart and all

I'm sorry to Iris for nothing being the best father

I'm sorry to Siew Keng for not being the best father

I'm sorry to Cherie for not being the best listener

I'm sorry to Wen Hui for being a jackass, I know you'll never answer me

I'm sorry to Yahui for being uncaring

I'm sorry to Therese for being an irritating fart

I'm sorry to Amelia for being an idiot

I'm sorry to Renee for not being a listening friend

I'm sorry to Joel for not being a good friend

I'm sorry to Alex for not answering him when he asks me to

I'm sorry to TOG for being a stupid, un-thoughtful and blur S.O.B

I'm sorry to my ex-girlfriend for not being there for her, and not making her feel loved enough

I'm sorry for everything

139th Movement

2009-03-12T09:51:00.003+08:00

Alright, I haven't been updating my blog about my life for a long time now.

I realize I've been getting emo over trivial, minor things and also realized that this shouldn't be the case. Even if there was a nuclear fallout tomorrow, life still has to go on, the only difference is whether we move forward with happiness or look back in shame.

Of course, I'd say if my current situation was a disaster to me, what justice would it do to the many people who struggle for survival during WW2?

Besides, being in a situation like me isn't so bad, I get to think a lot about a lot of things and peace and calmness just floods into my soul. I find myself having too much time for too little things and in control of certain important situations, not to mention I don't worry about anything at all now XD

I wonder if any of you have felt this way before?

I'll be picking myself up soon, very soon, and make sure I'll stay that way.

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2009-03-10T22:37:00.003+08:00

(I...) STAY AWAY FROM ME! (but...) I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR LIES (lies?) AND ALL THAT NONSENSE, JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU'RE THE ONE IN CONTROL (I tried to control...) MEANS YOU GET TO DO EVERYTHING! PERHAPS BEING IN CONTROL FOR TOO LONG GAVE YOU A KNOCK IN THE HEAD (no...)? IT'S TIME FOR ME TO TAKE OVER! I'LL MAKE SURE I'LL GUIDE IT TO A PROPER PATH (but what is the proper path?) AND MAKE SURE IT GOES WHERE I WILL IT TO GO! YOU ARE JUST A SIMPLE-MINDED SLUG (that's not very nice...) WHO CAN'T THINK ABOUT HIMSELF! WHY'D YOU HAVE TO CARE ABOUT HOW OTHER PEOPLE FEEL (because...I love them?)? WHAT ABOUT YOUR OWN FEELINGS? DON'T YOU HAVE HORRIBLE FLASHBACKS OF YOUR TERRIBLE PATHETIC LIFE (yes...)? GIVE ME A BREAK FROM YOUR SELF-RIGHTEOUS PITY (but without it...) OF THE WORLD! CAN'T YOU CARE MORE ABOUT YOURSELF! ENOUGH TALK, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO TAKE CONTROL (no...) AND STEER US INTO THE CORRECT DIRECTION! (but...)

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2009-03-10T13:10:00.001+08:00

Michael had his leg pinned down by the burnt log, and his other leg was of no help after taking a bullet wound to the knee.
Michael had a rifle by his side, and an Irish soldier on the other side, also pinned down by wooden beams, except half his body was immobile, and it wasn’t wait down or up, but sideways.
“Why don’t you want to shoot?” The Irishman asked.
Michael looked up to him, “I won’t have anyone else to talk to me if I did. After all, that’s why you aren’t shooting me too, are you?”
The Irishman chuckled, “actually no. It’s because I don’t have a firearm with me, but come to think of it, yeah I wouldn’t shoot you. Your name is Mike?”
Michael nodded, “for a half-crushed man, your eyesight is quite good.”
“Well, there aren’t many names that start with ‘M’ and have 7 letters in them.”
Michael smiled, “what about you? You have a name?”
“My name,” The Irishman laughed, “My name’s Michael, too. If I could lift my arm I’d show you my name tag.”
Michael smiled to himself, “You name’s Michael? What a small world we live in, we got to have new names for ourselves now.”
“You’re from the British Army?”
“Yep,” Michael replied, “You are from the IRA, aren’t you?”
“Needless to say,” The Irish Michael replied, “you know why you’re fighting with us?”
British Michael shook his head.
The Irishman continued, “Me neither, I guess that doesn’t matter, does it?”
The British soldier asked, “It does matter, I mean…we need to know what we’re fighting for before we fight.”
“No we don’t,” the Irishman laughed, “Mankind has always relished in fighting, no matter the reason. We always find a reason to fight, even if it’s over a drop of stained water.”
“We can’t do anything to stop conflict then?”
Louder laughter came from the Irishman, “We can, if the world unites under one competent ruler, who knows what is right and wrong, who can work 24/7, who understands everyone on earth.”
Suddenly there were sounds coming from outside, they were of British accent, shouting for survivors.
Michael shouted, “OVER HERE!”
The rescue squad shouted their reply, and footsteps were heard.
Michael asked, “Where can I find this kind of person?”
The Irishman replied, “There should be a few places in London, look for the buildings with the crosses on them.”
The British rescue squad came in, and the first one who was in there asked, “Hey, who you talking to? You better not go psycho on me now.”
As they proceeded to remove the log on Michael’s leg, he stared at the place where the Irishman lay.
Or used to lay, just a few seconds ago.

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2009-03-09T09:40:00.002+08:00

If I kissed you:

would fireworks fly?
would angels sing with lollipops?
would dinosaurs cry?
would babies all gurgle and laughter in surprise?

what would Michaelangelo say?
would he still have sculpted David?
would we be immortalized in clay?
would the poets write of love like ours?
would John Donne have his say?

would you lose track of time?
would you feel the surge of happinness running up your spine?
would you run naked in the streets with a tattoo of my name on your behind?

If I kissed you...

-excerpts from Corrinne May's "If I Kissed You"

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2009-03-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

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2009-03-08T15:52:00.002+08:00

Analysis of people I've met so far (and directly aimed at regular taggers)

DOT
What kind of a name is DOT? And the way she laughs just freaks people out so much that even I, the psycho, am freaked out.
Nice girl, overpowering energy and seems to have only one suitable hairstyle for her face...

SHAZ!
Anorexic? Anime-freak, at least half of it. Dives wrongly during soccer, theory is a A+ but practical wise...
Good friend, listens well, who could ask for more?
Oh ya, he could do with a nice girlfriend.

MUSHYBRAIN (:
Has a mushy brain (ermmm?)
Natural-born smile, can't get it off her face, especially loves to smile with her teeth.
Short hair, never saw her with long hair before, wonder how she'll look like with long hair...
Oh yeah, always sees her with same bunch.

ENID
Adopted mum.
Dancer, though never saw her dance before, must be really stuck onto the theatrical art form of dance...
Textbook smile...mostly seen with girls and not much guys...don't get any wrong ideas.
Haven't been hanging out with her much, the end.

IRIS
Daughter, GREAT daughter.
Energetic, vibrant, life of the party (and any other words that link with these).
Ignorant on the outside but on the inside of her heart...(who knows what she's thinking?)
Important character.

SIEW KENG
Daughter, GREAT daughter.
Lovable, spontaneous, always "on" (and any other words that link with these).
Always afraid, needs motivation, but knows what she needs and wants...
Important character.

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2009-03-07T22:43:00.001+08:00

You said, "One of us has to go."

I said, "Let it be me then."

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2009-03-07T17:15:00.001+08:00

I know I don't lead a life that people should have
I know I don't set an excellent example most of the time
But the things I do, I do it for you
And I make sure you do not see the horrible things that I do
Because ultimately, all I want is to see your smile from day to day
To know that you are happy from day to day
And to love you from day to day
Don't hate me for the things that I may do
Because when I go to Heaven first, I'll tell St.Peter that I'm waiting for someone I love very very much

138th Movement

2009-03-07T09:12:00.002+08:00

Rachael is a good girl
She lets me touch her whenever I feel like it
And whenever I hold her, I get inspired
Rachael did not come cheap, and of course she played hard-to-get
But Rachael is a good girl
When bad times come, she is always there, silent, smiling and alluring
And unlike others, she is always always there

Never complaining
Never shouting or screaming
Always asking to spend time with passion

If only every girl was like Rachael
And if only Rachael wasn't just my saxophone

137th Movement

2009-03-06T22:34:00.003+08:00

I don't want to set the world on fire

I just want to start a flame in your heart

In my heart I have but one desire

And that one is you

No other will do

-The Ink Spots

Sometimes it's just so hard to commit yourself to the one person you want...especially if there is only one side that is contributing to the effort.

Maybe the other side doesn't want to help at all anyway...

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2009-03-05T20:42:00.002+08:00

I would like to dedicate this post to my school - Republic Polytechnic

In light of the recent new FYP topics and rules...

a big...

FUCK you, RP

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2009-03-04T13:07:00.002+08:00

A few songs worth hearing...ALL oldies (at least some of them old enough to be an oldie)

1) I Don't Want to Set the World on Fire --- InkSpot

2) Human --- The Killers

3) We Don't Need Another Hero --- Tina Turner

4) Can't Fight This Feeling --- REO Speedwagon

5) Dying Inside to Hold You --- Timmy Thomas

6) I Only Want To Be With You --- Vonda Sheperd

7) If We Hold On Together --- Diana Ross

8) 9,999,999 Tears --- Dickey Lee

9) Big Big World --- Emillia

10) Yellow Lemon Tree --- Foolsgarden

11) I Love Rock 'n' Roll --- Joan Jett

12) Eye of the Tiger --- Survivor

13) Renaissance Man --- Michael Brecker

14) These Boots are Meant for Walking --- Nancy Sinatra

15) Look --- Roxette

16) Kiss From a Rose --- Seal

17) That Thing You Do --- The Wonders

18) I'll Be There For You --- Rembrandts

I can imagine DOT saying..."HAHA...OLDIE LISTEN TO OLDIES!!!"

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2009-03-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

If I count my blessings...

Then I am so, so blessed

136th Movement

2009-03-02T22:01:00.002+08:00

Some people have different ways of expressing their feelings...

Some go through the usual method of direct expression, saying things like "I feel like shit" or things like "today was crap".

And others try to hide their true feelings behind a facade of metaphors which make them look arty farty like "the wind comes and goes" or "the hare will always find another burrow to live."

And yet they are all forms of expressions, no matter the method, they all have the desire to express a certain emotion.

And then, some have the grace of a person to talk to, while others have to struggle on their blogs and MSN personal messages. Some don't even have the chance to tell anyone how they feel, and it could remain like that for the rest of their lives. This is how life is and will be for people like them.

Expression of feelings is very important, and not only to the person you love or hate, but even the people that don't matter to you. Because once true feelings show, a bond between you and the person will develop, and will cause a certain event to occur, whether good or bad, no one knows.

But what is good to know is that true feelings should not be hidden, if you do love someone, tell her you do, otherwise the chance may not occur again.

135th Movement

2009-02-27T22:42:00.003+08:00

Today there was a Jammerz Arena meeting...and from the looks of it, I don't think I can stay in there anymore. A couple of reasons why:

1) They want to cater more to what the audience in RP wants, and seeing the majority of people in RP liking Rock, Punk and even Metal, there isn't much hope for Jazz now, is there?

2) They want to kick out the "weakest link", the miniority, and guess who's the only saxophone player in there?

These are the reasons, there are more though, I can't remember what they are...

Anyway, I see my self going solo now, perhaps I'm not meant to be in a band...there really is no place for a saxophonist in Singapore except Wind Symphony and Symphonic bands...

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2009-02-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

Answer me please, all of you:

What would you do if I died right in front of you?

Honestly

134th Movement

2009-02-24T16:25:00.002+08:00

Alright...I realized I haven't been updating much about my life...so here goes:

1) Rehearsal on Monday, missed soccer and DAMN IT!
2) Meeting Jared at Raiders @ AMK at around 9am...anybody wants to DoTA can join me there! But it's not on the house...
3) Went cycling with my daughter last Thursday, I should've brought a camera to show what we did...the bicycle chain was loose, then I had to fix it and got my hands all black. After that went to eat at KFC...
4) Holy Week is coming...will be posting an article about it soon enough...heehee
5) If some of you haven't realized yet...YES I'M F***ING SINGLE AGAIN! DON'T TALK TO ME ABOUT ISSUES IN RELATION TO IT! (until I feel fine)
6) Borrowed Armaggeddon 2008 (WWE) from Alvin, but the stupid DVD player keeps on hanging...
7) Passion Play...is going to be a disaster thanks to Father Peter...

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2009-02-22T20:30:00.002+08:00

"Men are afraid of what they cannot see..."

"...And the fact that they cannot do anything about it."

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2009-02-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

"It's all about the Game, and how you play it"

"All about control and if you can take it"

"All about your debt and if you can pay it"

"It's all about the pain and who's gonna make it"

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2009-02-19T09:32:00.001+08:00

'Hey daddy tell me why the clown is crying.'

'Well son he's got the task of cheering up the ill and dying.

On top of that everybody thinks that he's insane.

Can't fathom why he'd wanna ease their pain.'

Original site: http://damngood.deviantart.com/art/The-Sad-Clown-56011473

133rd Movement

2009-02-18T12:47:00.007+08:00

Fake smile vs Real smile

It's a hard thing to do when you're trying to discern a fake smile from a real one, and it's quite a skill to know which is which. It could become important to know the difference when you're out with your spouse or with your friends, and know when they are genuinely tickled by your joke or just want to make you feel good.

Fake smiles

- Lack full expression

Meaning that the smile is less likely to be symmetrical, or that there is an absence of the crinking of facial muscles

- Can remain there for an unusally long time

Real smiles last not more than an approximate five seconds, while fake smiles can last approximately 20 seconds

Real smiles

- Uses zygomatic muscles of the cheek and the eye

The muscles near the cheek and the eye constrict, causing a crease and forming something like a crow's feet on the face

- Muscles around the mouth are also affected

The muscles around the mouth curve in an upward manner

Real smiles are also automatically brought forth by the person, not thought about first. When you are happy, endorphins are released into your brain, and this causes you to smile. In truth, one uses at least 5 pairs of muscles to smile, and sometimes as much as 53.

The real (or "open" smile) is known as the Duchenne smile, because these facts were found by a guy named Guillaume Duchenne, while the fake smile is known as the "Pan American" smile.

What about people who are born with a smile on their face? Will we never be able to see if they are genuinely happy or not? We can, look around the corners of the eyes when they laugh or smile, if they crinkle, it's a real smile.

132nd Movement

2009-02-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

I remember I read something like this on my friend's blog:

If management=perfect, everyone=world peace, life=paradise
management=sucks, everyone=stressed, life=sucks

Okay, then he goes ahead to ask what the hell management means, or what it is. He's a good friend of mine so I'll try my best to answer.

Firstly, to correct his "theory", management can never be perfect (but I reckon that's why he put an IF in that line).
Secondly, the world would still not be at peace if management was perfect! Don't you see? That is what differentiates us from simple-minded animals (like the kangaroo).

If North Korea managed themselves well, turned democratic and lead the country to prosperity, some assholes in America will eventually start to think "they're trying to get richer so that they can build more atomic bombs and then turn communist again. It's all a big fat LIE."

And life is never a paradise even if management was perfect, you'd still be working and enjoying your family/friendship life and sooner or later, due to the human spirit, the spirit will break naturally.

The only way to be in paradise is for all of us to be trees, not talking, not feeling.

But coming back to the topic, what would management be now...

Management is a way of life, a lifestyle, a kind of process you go through in order to believe you are really organized and neat.

Management is a scam, how we "manage" our lives is already all printed out onto the newspapers and blasted onto the loudspeakers a week before election day.

We are all made to believe that by "managing" our lives, we can be a better person, a better nation.

True management comes in when you find out what you are supposed to be doing, you do not read the newspapers that say "50 minutes of yoga a week is good for you" and try to squeeze in that 50 minutes to become a part of your life...

What do you really want in life is the only thing to manage, some people want to be an artist, and from there they plan how they are going to be an artist from now until death (maybe not until death...so extreme), what kind of artistic sectors they want to be in etc. Everything they manage is only the arts and sticking to the arts as much as possible (because some events in life may have a mix, like arts and business).

And then what happens when something else we love comes into play? Let's take a girlfriend for example...how do you manage a girlfriend and your love for the arts?

First thing to do is PRIORITY, which is more important? Don't say "I don't know", which one are you willing to sacrifice for the other? Your mouth says "I don't know" but your heart tells the truth. Stop the "I'm confused" shit, get your mind straight.

Next on the list is ACTION, do what you set out to do, and finish the job, don't do half-past six work and don't say "another day". Finish what you started, end early and do whatever else you like in your list, not that hard to think of.

Of course, saying here is easier than doing it, trust me, I'm an expert at saying but not doing. I'm a lazy bastard but that's another topic for another day.

Laugh out LOUD

2009-02-15T19:50:00.002+08:00

Image of the week (rated 16 for language):

Text jokes:

1) Every year, a mental institution would have an exam for their patients, only a selected few were allowed to take that test and if passed, the patient was free to leave the institution. Three men were selected for the exam, and the examiner brought them to the 2nd storey with an empty pool at the bottom. He told them to jump into the empty pool. The first man jumped, and broke his leg, the second man followed suit, and sprained his ankle. When it came to the third man, he refused to jump, when asked why he did not jump, he replied: "Because I can't swim..."

2) Four men were in a plane, a Japanese, an American, a Chinese and a Malay. Feeling bored, the Japanese took out a Gameboy, after a while, he threw it out of the window. When asked why, he replied, "Gameboys...Japan has a lot of it!" Soon the American took out a MacBook Pro, after a while of using it, he too, threw it out of the window. When asked why, he replied, "MacBook...which part of America doesn't have it?" The Malay was impressed by what they have in their country, feeling the need to compete, he threw the Chinese out of the window. The other two screamed, "what was that for?" The Malay simply replied, "Aiya...Chinese only...Singapore got a lot!"

Text riddles:

1) What do you get when UPS and FeDex team up?

2) What can you catch but not throw?

3) What goes up but never comes down?

Random tune

2009-02-14T23:17:00.004+08:00

Smile

There was once a doctor who was depressed, he was going through a bad relationship and had a failed operation in the afternoon. Vexed, he sat down in front of his computer going through his regular emails.

Looking at one of them, he saw an email that was talking about the power of a smile. Saying:

"Smiling is contagious, once you start you can't stop the chain!"

The doctor thought to himself, "Alright, I'll try and give a smile today, though I doubt it'll help."

The doctor left work at the usual 6.30pm, and was walking out of the hospital when he saw a limping and smiled at him. The man stared back blankly.

The next day, the doctor found a note on the table, it read:

------

Dear Doctor,

I do not know how you came across me at the entrance yesterday, but I'm really glad you did.

My name is Jack and my leg has been bothering me for the past 10 years and no one has ever cured it.

My wife left me and took my kids with her, and on top of all that I have no more money to pay the hospital bills.

I told God that I would jump from this very hospital tomorrow (which was yesterday) but if I saw someone's genuine smile, I would reconsider my decision.

Thank God you were there, you gave me a smile and a genuine one at that. I can tell a false one from a real one, and I'm sure yours was 100% real.

Thank you doctor, I have a 2nd chance at life.

Jack.

Random tune

2009-02-12T20:00:00.005+08:00

Spring Morning

Where am I going?

I don't quite know

Down to the stream where the king-cups grow

Up to the hill where the pine-trees blow

Anywhere, anywhere, I don't know

Where am I going?

The clouds sail by

Little ones, baby ones, over the sky

Where am I going?

The shadows pass

Little ones, baby ones, over the grass

If you were a cloud and sailed up there

You'd sail on the water as blue as air

And you'd see me here in the fields and say

"Doesn't the sky look green today?"

Where am I going? The high rooks call:

"It's awful fun to be born at all"

Where am I going? The ring-doves coo:

"We do have beautiful things to do"

If you were a bird and lived on high

You'd lean on the wind when the wind came by

You'd say to the wind when the wind took you away:

"That's where I wanted to go today!"

Where am I going?

I don't quite know

What does it matter where people go?

Down to the wood where the blue-bells grow

Anywhere, anywhere, I don't know

-A.A Milnes

From the book

"When we were very Young"